Girl Talk Gone Wrong
...Wait. Nobody warned me about this
August 16
Orion spent the entire morning complaining that we were at work instead of questioning Kent.
...
Sigh.
Honestly...
I wanted to go too.
But it's not like we can suddenly ditch work after already showing up.
Responsibilities first.
I absentmindedly held the phone in my apron pocket.
Still no messages from Shin.
I don't want to bother him either.
If he hasn't contacted me yet...
Then he's probably still dealing with the police or studying.
I'll just wait until he reaches out.
Until then...
Orion and I will continue doing what we can.
After work, I turned around...
Only to find...
Sawa.
And Toma.
...
Another déjà vu.
This time...
At the café instead of my apartment.
Apparently, they wanted me to choose who I'd spend the rest of the afternoon with.
Sawa invited me to relax together.
Toma invited me too.
...
Sorry, Toma.
I'd rather go with Sawa.
Not because I don't trust you.
But...
Shin is still my boyfriend.
Being alone with another guy just feels... weird.
So Sawa and I ended up chatting at my apartment.
She still doesn't know about my amnesia.
I almost told her.
But...
I remembered Shin's warning.
Only tell people I truly trust.
So I kept quiet.
Then Sawa brought up an unexpected topic.
Apparently...
Shin never liked holding my hand.
...
Wait.
Seriously?
She said kissing wasn't a problem.
But holding hands?
He'd get embarrassed and avoid it.
...
What?
So he's just a pervert after all?
Old me...
Why did you date this guy again??
...
Then Sawa explained that I'd complained to her about it before.
Ah...
I get it now.
Honestly...
It is kind of cute.
Getting embarrassed over something as simple as holding hands.
...
But it'd also be really annoying if he did it every single time.
Then...
Sawa quietly smiled.
She said...
She wished Shin would come back soon.
So she could finally stop thinking about him.
And move on.
...
WAIT.
WHAT?!
YOU HAD A CRUSH ON SHIN?!
OH MY GOD.
I FEEL SO BAD.
Sawa...
You really shouldn't have fallen for him.
If only you knew what I've been dealing with.
First...
He's a pervert.
Second...
He's basically a Spartan.
Third...
His tongue is sharper than a knife.
...
Although...
I kind of understand.
Despite all that...
He's reliable.
Cool.
And the kind of person that's hard not to admire.
...
Then it finally hit me.
Sawa...
She's been carrying these feelings the entire time Shin and I were together.
Every time she saw us...
Every time she watched us talk...
Even when she called Shin and handed the phone to me...
She must've been hurting.
...
I feel awful.
I almost wanted to help her confess.
If that's what she truly wanted.
...
But...
I know that's a terrible idea.
Shin loves the old me.
Even if I can't remember him...
I'm still the person he chose.
Confessing now would only hurt Sawa even more.
...
I just...
Hope she'll find someone who can look at her the same way she looked at Shin.
She deserves that much.
...
Now what am I supposed to do?
Did Shin know?
Did the old me know?