I Believe Him
Rumors are just Rumors until there's Proof.
August 7
Another day at work.
At this point, I'm finally starting to get used to everything.
After work, Mine, Toma, and I ended up talking about the accident again.
Mine brought up something that had been bothering her.
She said Shin looked far too calm after I fell from the cliff.
She couldn't understand how someone could react like that after watching his own girlfriend fall right in front of him.
...
But...
Didn't Sawa say he looked pale?
That has to count for something.
Mine also said Shin didn't even search for me himself.
Instead, he stayed behind talking with the police.
I don't think that means he didn't care.
Even though I don't really know Shin as I am now...
From everything I've seen since waking up, he always seems to think before acting.
Maybe there was a reason.
Maybe he believed speaking with the police was the right thing to do.
That doesn't mean he was calm.
I'm sure...
He was panicking inside too.
Then Mine mentioned another rumor.
She said she'd heard Shin's father was a murderer.
...
It's only a rumor.
None of us know the full story.
And even if it were true...
That doesn't automatically make Shin the same kind of person.
I know I wasn't there to see what Mine saw.
I don't know what Shin looked like through her eyes.
But...
She just kept pushing it.
Honestly...
I was getting really angry.
She kept treating rumors and assumptions like they were facts.
Just imagining Shin having to hear people talk about him like that...
It made my blood boil.
Before I could say anything, Toma spoke up instead.
He calmly told Mine exactly what he thought.
After hearing him out, Mine apologized.
...
That helped.
A little.
But I was still upset.
Orion noticed immediately.
He looked worried and say something that I couldn't processed well.
I couldn't really answer him.
My mind was completely occupied by thoughts of Shin.
I'm worried about him.
Not in a romantic way.
Not yet.
It's because of the person I've come to know since waking up in the hospital.
The Shin who's been helping me every day.
The one who's stayed by my side.
...
I believe him.
But...
Why?
Is it because he's helped me?
Because he's my boyfriend?
Because we've been childhood friends?
Anyone can betray anyone.
So why do I still want to believe him?
I don't know.
I just...
I want to know the truth.
If only I could go back to the cliff where the accident happened...
Maybe all of my memories would return.
...
I wonder if Shin would let me.